The tumor markers that we did last week showed a decrease in both tests. It was only about 5 points down for each, but anything down is in the right direction! Also, I had to be reminded that the tumor markers are measuring proteins that are released from both live & dead cancer cells so even a little jump up during active chemo can be normal. Since these last tests were done during chemo & before the last shot of it, hopefully, we'll see a bigger decrease a little further down the road.
My petscan is Wednesday of next week, and I will get those results on Friday. I'm nervous for those results, but the tumor marker decrease does put me at ease that things are still moving in the right direction. I have to keep reminding myself that this scan may still not be the full picture, like the tumor markers, because the chemo continues to work for a bit of time. Since telling the exact number hasn't been definitive on either scan and sizing the actual spots was a problem last time, I am expecting that we will primarily have to go by the SUV, how brightly the places light up or are active, again which could be impacted by dying cells as well.
I would so love to hear that there is no evidence of the cancer anymore, but while I definitely believe all things are possible, I need to remember that all things are in His time so that I don't get too hung up on being happy with only complete elimination when things are still working.
I feel like I just need to add Matthew 6:34 - " So do not worry or be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will have worries and anxieties of its own" and Isaiah 41:10 - "Do not fear, for I am with you" to the repeated loop of Psalms 46:10 - "Be still, and know that I am God" that plays in my head and brings me peace and calm.